Blog 71: I am BULIMIC..

I am bulimic..

No.. let me rephrase that...

I am BULIMIC ~ by force~

How? Easy... everything I ate, yep.. I mean EVERYTHING I ate will come out again and I couldn't stop it...

It's kinda tiring not to be able to stomach the thing I ate and this would also lead to extreme hunger, especially at midnight...

I couldn't even eat a full plate of fried rice or noodles... I couldn't even finish my sandwiches... but don't get it wrong... my will to eat is still strong...

I still drool when I see a full plate of ribs at Tony Romas, but after ordering it... I discovered that I only managed to eat one... and then the whole puking thingy starts all over again... and again.. and again...

IS THIS A CURSE? OR A BLESSING IN DISGUISE?

Maybe this is Allah's way to help me to lose some weight because I keep on failing to lose any weight since I started gaining it 20 years ago...

Maybe my 20 years of fat collecting process is too much already and my body is silently screaming for help...

But for now, I am bulimic by force and it sucked ~ big time~... :(