~DANIEL~

on each of the bad days of my painful life...

when i start to feel that feeling of lost and hopeless grief...

i close my eyes and picture the ones i love; my parents and siblings, my nieces...

and finally...

towards the very end...

he will always be there, with that special smile on his face...

my last piece of strength and hope... 

the last piece of the puzzle...

Blog 77: why korean? i say.. why NOT korean?

i an an avid korean fan.. and i think everyone knows that...

i lurve korean dramas, films, artiste, songs, food, Suju, Minnie.. hehehe...

why korean? one might ask... some rude ones would even sarcastically snicker and said i'm crazy... crazy for being a fan of something only 'young' people would love... 

define 'young', please... i think a lot of young people love hindustani films n go loco while looking at the buff chiseled-faced actors but obviously the older fans are not considered pedophile, right?

just because i love something that is considered 'in' right now makes me weird? if i say i love modern pop korean songs suddenly i am a disgrace to my career as an educator?

people laugh when i say i like Minnie... 'perasan muda' they would say.... a cradle snatcher..a cougar (hahaha!) but i don't think all team edward fans out there are younger than him (also born in 1986! surprisingly!) so there nothing 'cougarish' there... haha!

looking at him makes me calm... i don't know why but it does... so SUE me.... aish!

well...for me, growing OLD is INEVITABLE but growing UP is OPTIONAL... i like what i like n i don't have to conform to what others expect of me, right? i don't tell u what u should like so there... shut the **** up!  

~~~coretan tahapehape 11~~~

 masuk last night dah 2 kali aku mimpi Minnie ckp melayu ngan aku...

dia ckp dia dah penat ngan sume mende nyanyi2 yg dia kene buat nih.. 

n he even asked me whether he could stay wif me in malaysia... hahahaha!

ngape ek?? apasal mimpi aku macam sakai jek?

pelik2 betol mimpi2 aku skarang...

aww... Minnie.... pliz don't change..... alwayz b my adorable cutiepie!

~~~coretan tahapehape 10~~~

finally, this is what ~PeRfEcTiOn~ means to me...  :)

~~~coretan tahapehape 9~~~

meet my new luv... 

MR FLUFFLES!

nuha yg bagi.. hehhehe... 

me wuv nuha beri2 mucho!  

muah muah muah!

same ngan Minnie punye!! but die nyer warne pink!! hahahhah! 

~~~coretan tahapehape 8~~~

Why do I think he is perfect?

Couldn't be more obvious than this....

 ~Minnie, I shall call you Squishy 

and 

you shall be MINE 

and 

you shall be MY Squishy~  

ARASO?!!

...Come on, Squishy Come on, little Squishy Come on, my little Minnie squishy....

aigoo........

~~~coretan tahapehape 7~~~

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saw diz vid 2day...

i am so in lurve wif diz guy... luv his tenderness, his diversity, his unlimited talent....

what 2 do? i don't think i will ever find anyone like him...

well, i hev 2 accept that i will live alone then.... n, seriously, i don't mind.... :)

p/s: thanx SUJUISM.BLOGSPOT.COM for the sub...

Blog 45: meet the ultimate self saboteur... part 2

time: 2.00 a.m.

yana : why minnie?

me: huh? (scratching my head while thinking... oh no! not this 'kitorang-tak-paham-knape-along-suke-mamat-
yg-looked-so-girlishly-cute' talk!!)

yana: why minnie? i've finished reading ur previous blog and i understand what u wrote but only the part where u
self-proclaimed that ur indeed a self saboteur.. but, there's one thing i don't understand... u could choose
anyone or any famous people as ur so called 'unattainable' aim but why minnie? that alone is a mystery to
me....

aigoo... my sisters could be so ******* annoying at times! hahahha.... tapi again they hev a point... aku pon x sure why it has to be him... i've told u guys before this yg i do like his eyes n somehow he projects the image of calm and serenity but again, like what yana said... why him? why not some guy who projects a better image of being manly? hmm... while i was deep in thoughts yana gave her opinion...

yana: along, i think your job has something to do with this. you have been among children n growing kids for too
long until subconsciously u start to feel that grown up guys who looks n acts like a cute kid is so adorable...

me: what? what do u mean?

yana: it's so obvious that uda, atie n me think it's so weird for u to fall for this type of guys.. it's so unlike u...
sume orang boley nampak that clearly...

me: seriously? hmm.... (starts to think deeply again...)

tetibe i felt so confused... but truthfully, my mind was already confused when yana asked 'why minnie?' earlier. buat pertama kali, i couldn't give her a straight answer that would satisfy her curiosity and most importantly, an honest reply that could untangle my own state of confusion.

i do admit that i prefer him better when he is like this


rather than like this


and a picture of him smiling happily like a small kid is so very adorable


and i really hate it when he is in his emo mode




so, yana has a point, right? or is it possible just to like someone without any solid tangible reason? do i like him becoz i am surrounded by cute kids all day? really? is that it?... uish... my mind is so confused right now so i really really need to reboot....

Blog 44: meet the ultimate self saboteur... part 1

time: 12.00 p.m.

i have never considered myself lucky in any romantic relationship. why? at first i thought maybe that's just my luck... or perhaps the situation was wrong at that time, or the person was not the one or ~yada~yada~yada (1001 more excuses)... until suddenly this interesting conversation took place a few days ago:

me: (looking at minnie's files in my lappy) aish... ni kene layan sensorang ni.. nanti hang tengok hang kutuk lak.. (that's was supposed to be a joke, actually....)

atie: memang pon, x paham knape along suke sangat org macam ni (jawapan diberi ketika mate dah separuh tertutup pasal ngantok)

along: huh? abistu... org macam mane yg patut aku suke?

atie: hmm..... (getting more sleepy..) x taula tapi atie x suke orang cam minnie....

to cut things short, aku x marah pon ngan atie.. coz i think she is just being honest... but it made me think for a while about my past relationships and how they have affected me... a good friend of mine penah kate i'm an obvious case of commitment phobic, coz kalu things dah jadik more serious i would tend to run away or find reasons, no matter how stoopid, to get away from it... my friend said that in the nicest way possible but at that time aku malas nak amek pot sangat...

tetibe, ntah kenape aku mule terpiker sejenak pasal mende ni... putting aside all my stoopid, senseless crushes during my teenage years (yusri KRU.. urghh!intan.. seriously?), aku rase all throughout my life ade 2 relationships yg kalau aku sensible enough at that time to pursue them, they might lead to something or somewhere. so aku piker balik knape at time time i screwed up? after 2 hari berpiker ngan mendalam... finally, i realize something clear and simple...

I AM THE ULTIMATE SELF SABOTEUR

yep, people... sadly, that's the reason. i screwed up because i want to and it's not unintentionally. i did this in most of my past relationships until i realize i could write a manual about it and here goes:

Idiot's Guide To Know An Ultimate Self Saboteur

1. An ultimate self saboteur is a special human being who looks like a confidant person, usually very articulate and sometimes seems like an insufferable 'know-it-all' but all those qualities are actually a perfect facade to cover his/her own insecurities and self-doubt.

2. The inner mind of the ultimate self saboteur is always full of 'what ifs'... what if this person is just playing around? what if this is only temporary? what if it's actually not meant to be? what if i make a wrong choice? and the worst would be.. what if all of this is only a dream? (yup, pathetic... i know...)

3. The ultimate self saboteur also is a very efficient 'reason seeker' and he/she will find or will even come up with the most ludicrous reasons to find any negative aspects in everything (the person, the situation.. heck! even the weather!) even though there are actually tons and tons of positive aspects that he/she could consider but refuse to see even if a third eye miraculously appeared on his/her forehead.

4. The ultimate self saboteur always aim high and puts his/her expectations way up above to a place where, deep down inside, he/she knows that it is actually, virtually impossible for him/her to achieve them.

5. In the end, the ultimate self saboteur will create a perfect world where only he/she would understand and would have hoped for, opening the front door just enough for other people to peek into the beautiful 'decor' which is created to conceal the inevitable cracks of his/her life.

what's this got 2 do with my conversation about minnie? hmmm.... it made me think whether minnie is actually me getting away from reality by refusing to think if i really have a shot of having a real relationship which again will be tainted with all the what ifs that will come out from my restless mind due to the fact that i would always, always look at the negative aspects first hence the need to find somebody perfectly impossible for me to get (that's minnie!) and in the end, creating a perfect world in my own mind just to make me happy although i know that it is not real just because it covers the fact that i'm already 30 and my heart is failing....

so, atie.... adakah itu menjawab persoalan hang kenape aku suke minnie?

p/s: oh ye.. lupe lak... self saboteur is pensabotaj diri sendiri.. (vocab lesson from tcer intan) hehehe.....

~~~coretan tahapehape 6~~

WHO IS THIS CUTE LIL BABY?

WHAT ABOUT THIS CUTE LIL TOT?

~~HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAH~~

p/s: sorry 4 de stoopid post... woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning... must have banged my head on the side table....

Blog 37: cerita kanak2 untuk nuha dan yaya...

time:7.00 p.m.

kisah ni omma tulis khas untuk nuha dan yaya, pengarang jantung hati omma....

~~~Kisah Si Labu Kuning Yang Comel~~~

Pada zaman dahulu, ada sebiji Labu Kuning yang amat comel dan periang. Namun demikian, Si Labu Kuning ada satu kelemahan yang besar, dia amat pemalu dan tidak pandai untuk berkawan mahupun berbual-bual dengan sayur-sayur yang lain. Selain itu, Si Labu Kuning juga selalu memikirkan yang dirinya tidak setanding dengan kawan-kawan sayurannya di sekolah seperti Si Kobis Panjang yang pandai menghiburkan sayur-sayur lain. Si Lobak Merah pula berasal dari keluarga yang kaya dan sentiasa perlu menjaga penampilan dan nama baik keluarganya. Si Terung dan Si Lada Merah yang nampak kasar pada zahir dan gaya percakapan mereka pun mempunyai ramai kawan-kawan yang suka bergembira dan mengusik sayur-sayur yang lain. Si Cendawan pula suka makan dan tidak kisah walaupun setiasa diejek 'Si Cendawan Buntal' oleh Si Terung dan Si Lada Merah yang nakal itu.

Satu-satunya kawan Si Labu Kuning ialah Si Taugeh kerana mereka telah berkawan dari kecil. Si Labu Kuning suka berkawan dengan Si Taugeh kerana Si Taugeh suka bergurau dan berlawak serta selalu membuat Si Labu Kuning ketawa geli hati. Si Taugeh juga amat baik hati dan selalu membantu Si Labu Kuning. Mereka suka melakukan banyak aktiviti bersama-sama seperti menyanyi dan menari. Si Taugeh suka menari dan amat berbakat dalam semua jenis tarian manakala Si Labu Kuning pula lebih suka menyanyi. Suatu hari, Si Taugeh memperkenalkan kawan barunya, Si Bawang Besar. Mereka berkenalan ketika mengikuti kelas tarian yang sama dan kebetulan, Si Taugeh berjaya memujuk Si Bawang Besar untuk bertukar ke sekolah mereka. Apa yang menyedihkan, Si Taugeh seolah-olah telah melupakan Si Labu Kuning kerana asyik menghabiskan masa bermain dan menari dengan Si Bawang Besar. Ini menyebabkan Si Labu Kuning berasa amat sunyi dan sedih kerana Si Taugeh telah melupakan tali persahabatan mereka yang telah terjalin sejak sekian lama.

Si Labu Kuning cuba untuk berkawan dengan Si Tomato dan Si Brokoli kerana mereka berdua juga mempunyai minat yang sama dengan Si Labu Kuning iaitu menyanyi. Namun demikan, apabila Si Labu Kuning terdengar suara mereka yang terlalu merdu bak buluh perindu, Si Labu Kuning terpaksa mengakui bahawa dia tidak setanding dengan bakat mereka. Si Labu Kuning hanya mampu mendengar betapa merdunya suara mereka berdua ketika berduet menyanyikan beberapa lagu kegemaran mereka.

Hari demi hari berlalu, Si Labu Kuning semakin muram dan sedih. Setiap hari semasa waktu rehat, dia hanya duduk di bawah pokok sambil bermain gitar merah jambu kesayangannya. Tiba-tiba pada suatu hari, suatu suara menegurnya, "Awak pandai main gitar, ya?"

"Ya, saya suka mencipta lagu dan menyanyi tapi suara saya tidak merdu," kata Si Labu Kuning sambil memandang ke arah sayur hijau yang berdiri dihadapannya.

"Hi, saya Si Lada Benggala. Kadang-kadang saya juga dikenali sebagai Si Lada Cameron. Itu nama glamor saya," kata Si Lada Benggala sambil menghulurkan tangannya untuk bersalam. "Maaflah, tangan saya pendek sikit."

Si Labu Kuning ketawa mendengar kata-kata Si Lada Benggala itu tadi. "Tangan awak tidaklah pendek sangat, tangan saya lagi pendek. Kaki saya pun pendek."

"Tak mengapa jika tangan awak pendek, yang penting awak pandai bermain gitar. Saya suka melihat awak bermain gitar. Boleh awak ajar saya?" tanya Si Lada Benggala.

Inilah pertama kali Si Labu Kuning mendengar kata-kata pujian yang diberikan kepadanya dengan ikhlas. Selama ini tangan dan jarinya yang pendek selalu diejek olah sayur-sayur yang lain, terutama Si Terung dan Si Lada Merah.

"Boleh, apa salahnya? Biar saya main satu lagu, okey?" tangan Si Labu Kuning pantas memainkan salah satu lagu terkenal yang menjadi siulan ramai ketika ini. Dengan tidak disangka-sangka Si Lada Benggala terus memejamkan mata sambil menghayati dan mula menyanyikan lagu tersebut dengan suara yang amat merdu.

"Wah, suara awak juga sangat merdu, setanding denga suara Si Brokoli dan Si Tomato. Alangkah bagusnya jika saya mempunyai suara semerdu awak," kata Si Labu Kuning memuji-muji bakat yang ada pada Si Lada Benggala. Si Lada Benggala hanya tersenyum sambil mengeleng-gelengkan kepala.

"Saya rasa suara saya biasa sahaja. Lagipun, saya dilahirkan dengan suara begini. Pada saya, kebolehan awak bermain gitar itu lebih mengagumkan kerana saya tahu awak telah berusaha keras untuk berlatih setiap hari untuk berupaya bermain sebaik ini. Saya kagum dengan kegigihan awak untuk mempelajari sesuatu yang baru sehingga awak berjaya. Baiklah, apa kata mulai hari ini saya akan menyanyikan setiap lagu yang awak mainkan, boleh kan?"

Si Labu Kuning tersenyum sambil mengangukkan kepalanya. Mulai dari hari itu, Si Labu Kuning telah mendapat kawan baru yang amat baik dan memahami dirinya. Hidupnya kini lebih ceria kerana kawannya Si Lada Benggala selalu memberikan galakan kepadanya untuk mempelajari alat-alat muzik yang lain. Kini barulah Si Labu Kuning sedar akan bakat dan keistimewaan yang ada pada dirinya.

Benarlah kata Si Lada Benggala, "setiap sayur-sayuran yang ada telah dianugerahkan oleh Tuhan bakat dan keistimewaan masing-masing, jadi janganlah kita berasa rendah diri dan membanding-bandingkan diri kita dengan bakat dan keistimewaan sayur lain. Apa yang penting ialah kita dapat melihat kemampuan dan potensi diri kita dan yang paling penting ialah kita harus berusaha untuk menjadi yang terbaik dalam setiap perkara yang kita lakukan. Itu lebih penting berbanding hanya berbangga dengan bakat yang ada tanpa sebarang usaha untuk kita memperbaiki diri."

Si Labu Kuning bersyukur mempunyai kawan baru sebaik Si Lada Benggala. Kini, dia tidak lagi berasa sunyi kerana hari-hari mereka dipenuhi dengan pelbagai perkara menarik yang dilakukan bersama-sama seperti bermain permainan video dan menonton wayang serta drama. Seperti yang dijanjikan oleh Si Lada Benggala, setiap lagu-lagu baru ciptaan Si Labu Kuning akan dinyanyikan oleh Si Lada Benggala dengan begitu merdu sekali. Lama kelamaan, dengan sokongan dan galakan yang diberikan oleh Si Lada Benggala, Si Labu Kuning telah kembali ceria dan riang seperti dahulu.

~~~Tamat~~~

p/s: fuh... penatnye tulis dlm full standard bm.. hahhahah... nuha ngan yaya, ok tak cerita omma nih? hehhehe....

Blog 36: bertukar pada mode happy :) ~Sailormoon... BERTUKAR!!

time: 8.15 a.m.

bile aku bace balik blog2 aku kebelakangan nih raser macam banyak sangat mode 'kesayuan' lah.. aish... dah lari dah tujuan asal aku bile memula start blog ni... aku namo jadikan blog ni tempat untuk aku luahkan rase sedey yg melampau2, meratap akan nasib diriku ini.. sob sob sob... aish!! STOP! THIS IS SO NOT ME!

mari kite bertukar mode dengan melayan beberape mende yg besh n klaka... nuha cinta makin besar, skarang dah almost 7 kilo.. fuyyo!!! hebat uda krn dapat mendebabkan nuha ngan minum susu jek.. syabas! huhuhu... auliya plak makin bijak.. suruh jage nuha pandai jek die jalan ngan walker die pastu stop kat tepi nuha pastu melayan 'au au ai ai' (girl talk versi baby) mase kitorang bukak puase aritu.. har har har.. klaka klaka....

oklah.. layan jek vid baby shindong yg menari x hengat dunia nih.. siap galok ngorat noona lawa lagik.. ish ish ish.. budak2 skarang.. yana, jangan gama sufyan hang camni sudah.. kuikuikui!!

p/s: x de mini Minnie ke? hahhaha..... kalu ade sah2 aku kidnap skali ngan Minnie ori... (sorry, otak x brape betol..he he)

~~~coretan tahapehape 5~~~

SuShow 3 dah start...

nak pegi.. nak pegi... nak pegi....
hmm... boleh ke?
larat ke?
mampu ke?


hmmmm................

x datang and

miss this???



i'm flying noona.... wait for me....


HELL NO!!

~hahahahahah~

MINNIE!!!

here i come!

~~~pleaseletmyheartbehealthy...pleaseletmyheartbehealthy...pleaseletmyheartbehealthy~~~

Blog 28: bile nuha n auliya dah mule pandai memilih...

time: 2.30 p.m.

due mende yg klaka tahap dewa telah berlaku.. mari kite ikut rentetan citer ni satu persatu...

***kisah pertama***

~bile nuha cinta bertemu prince charming...~

dalam sebulan lepas, nuha ngan ummi die lepak2 kat bilik aku cam biase... pastu as usual, aku musti tgh melayan suju nye mv, aku rase lagu bonamana kot, ke sorry sorry aku x henggat.. nuha tgh main2 ngan ummi die, pastu tetibe die pandang skrin laptop aku n trus terpaku.. ummi die siap panggil2 lagi.. "nuha.. nuha.. nuha tgk ape tu?"... haa.. nak tau ape die tgh tengok? si mamat nih...

yang klakanye.. punyela leka tengok si mamat siwon ni sampai x berkelip2 mate.. siap meleleh air liur lagik... warghahhaha.... bile part siwon dah abes barulah die tetibe macam tersedar dari lamunan... aku ngan ummi die ape lagi, gelak sakan sampai nak pecah perot! amboi2 nuha... hebat gak taste hang... omma approve! oleh itu, dengar sume manusia segenap alam... choi siwon dah di'book' oleh nuha cinta.. phuhahhahha... (walaupon hakikatnye si siwon ni dah tahap ajusshi ngan si nuha nih...) aigooo... nuha nuha.. hang ni klaka betol la....

***kisah kedua***

~pwincess yaya dan si 'angel'~

nak dijadikkan cerite, si yaya ni dah dekat 2 minggu x datang umah so tadi mama ngan papa die bawak die jumpe atuk n dadima kat umah. bile die masuk bilik aku aku baru nak on laptop so tetibe die nampakla wallpaper aku yg kiut giler tu.... hahha.... ni ha wall paper aku skarang... kiutkan?? tengok muke minnie yg comel gile tuh... (uish! dah lari topik nih!!)

anyway... pastu tetibe jek die terlompat2 sakan sambil badan meleding2 ke arah laptop aku, so aku pon pelan2 la dekatkan die ngan my lappy... pastu elok2 jek die tunjuk gamba mamat nih ngan jari die yang basah ngan air liur tuh... hahahhaha....

alahai... rupenye si angel teukie teukie yg kepochi tuh.... ape lagi, aku pon gelaklah... atie kate xkan la die pileh sendirik.. mesti aku yang pegang tangan die.. uish, mane ade??? x de maknenyeh!!! dahla si leetuk tu dudok dekat2 ngan minnie n kyu... cuak gak kalo tetibe ye tunjuk kat minnie... ahhahhaa... nak puaskan ati, aku dekatkan die balik kat wallpaper aku n true enuff, kali ke2 pon die tetap tunjuk kat leetuk.. haaa.. ape citer??? ahahhaha... so obviously pwincess yaya dah pileh angel die... ahahahhha.... oklah tu.. walaupon si teukie tu tahap mulut x de insuran tapi banyak gak kualiti2 bagos yg die ade.. oklah yaya.. ur choice, omma loike!!! ehehehhe.......

aduih... klaka betol 2 org anak sdare aku nih... buat aku gelak memanjang.... haa.. nanti mama ngan papa/ummi ngan babah die bising lah tu pasal anak2 diorang dah kene demam korea omma... hhaaaa... naseb la.... bukan salah ibu 'mengendong'... alang kepalang minat korea, nanti aku ajar joget sorry sorry ke... bonamana ke... no other ke... ahahahahaah.... aigoooo..... nuha ngan yaya ni buat aku nak gigit2 jek.. geram betol! omma really2 loves korang dua nih!! muah muah muah!!

Blog 26: antara penat, letih dan kecewa...

time: 6.30 p.m.

minggu yg amat memenatkan buat aku... banyak kerja2 yg tertangguh sebab nak kene redo balik mende penting yg ilang tu... naseb baek student aku banyak membantu, kalu x bley masuk sepital lagi aku nampak gayenyer... so to zue, myda, fyda, fyra, alin n mimi... thanx so very2 much.. luv u guys!! diz weekend kite layan twilight, ok!

dada n pernafasan rase sempit balik... tah knape tah.. boring gak sebenornye.. yelah.. ubat dah makan, air dah kontrol.. tetibe rase soosah nk napas lak.. buat org risau jek... takot gak kalu lungs masuk air lagik.. adoih.. cukup2 pengalaman2 dulu... serik giler rasernye..

surroundings n orang2 sekeliling.. emm.. ok.. bleyla.. biasela, tak kan sume ok ye tak.. tapi as long as aku boley tahan.. aku kan tahan sebaik mungkin n try tunjuk muke ok walaupon hakikatnye Tuhan jek tau betape nak pengsan nye aku rase time tuh...

teringkat ade sumbody kat skolah tanye aku, "intan, esok sihat kan? datang skolah kan?"... haiz... aku tau niatnye baik tapi macam aku kate dlm blog2 aku dulu lah.. some people ingat sakit aku ni memain... very tempted to say.. "kak, ajal maut di tangan Tuhan... kalu masih hidup, saya datang la besok.." tapi nampak macam rude gile plak.. tu lah.. but i hev 2 admit, tension n letih gak kenkadang berhadapan dgn golongan manusia2 camnih...

ok lah.. buangkan yg negatif, pikirkan yg positif... my F1 classes ok la gak... lame jugak aku x ajar F1 students so rase bingit gak dengan diorang nye non-stop talking.. adoih!! sabar2....

kyu dah ade twitter n tu pon buat aku pissed off... kalu minnie tak deactivate acc ye.. aku dah dapat 1 set dah... GERAM!!... minnie bagi alasan yg ye x leh nak update his twitter all de time so he feels guilty to all his followers... tidak kah die tau betapa broken-hearted nye aku bile die padam acc ye.. adoih minnie... ko pecah berderaikan hati dan perasaan ku ko x rase guilty lak!! aish!! kang chentaku beralih arah pade kyu ke, hyukkie ke baru ko tau.. hahhahha .... (ni dah obvious aku dah x betol..)....

oklah, aku nak berehat... intan noorfaiza, jangan sakit!!

~~~coretan tahahehape 4~~~

Minnie deleted his twitter account...

WHY??

He also put his photo n diary section in his cyworld under 'private'... hmmmm..




Any theories on why he did that?

Atie's theory (1)
"Ala, long .. die dah start emo balik la tu... tah knape tah die tu.. kejap ok kejap emo...susah nk paham betol la... berat badan naek balik kot... tengok pon dah makin tumbam skarang... tengok kyu, langsung x de twitter.. huhuhu"

Yana's theory (2)
"Gf die marah kot die dok habeskan mase main twitter... pastu x layan awek die.. dahla mase terhad nak klua dating, pastu tangan sebok tekan2 phone.. sape x hangin? Musti gf die kate kalau u syg i delete ur account.. choose either me or ur stoopid twitter...
(lakonan drama sebabak pompuan elestik bernama yana)"

Zue's theory (3)
"OMG tche, he deleted his account.. not himself!! N'way, as long as Heechul did not delete his acc than it's fine wif me.. hehe.."

Uda's theory (4)
"Ape? Delete account twitter? Knape? Die ade twitter? Ooo.. along pon ade twitter... ooo.. along ade twitter pasal minnie ade twitter, baru paham.. err... (ummi nuha yg agak blur terpakse melayan omma dan pade mase yg same kene melayan nuha, masak dinner n piker psl keje yg bertimbun2 kat pejabat)


So kesimpulannye...

MINNIE, WHY DID U DELETE UR ACCOUNT???
WAAAAA!!!!

I HATE U FOR BEING SO MYSTERIOUS
AND
COMPLICATED!!


I HATE U FOR BEING IGNORANT
AND
REFUSING TO SHARE OR SHOW
ANY EMOTION AT ALL
IN ANY SITUATION!!


But most importantly,
I hate u for ur natural ability
to make me happy,
even if it's merely just by reading ur daily tweets
or looking at ur innocent face...

~~~coretan tahapehape 3~~~

suju dah klua single baru.. No Other n i really luv diz song! Why?

1) luv their smiling faces.. macam zaman2 marry u... very cute + sweet especially Minnie ku... huhuhu......

2) suke konsep diorang diz time, fresh n easy listening.. muak gak ngan konsep dark n beastly all the time coz dah banyak sangat group yang macam tu skarang...

3) luv the fact that they are among the oldest idols around but they managed to pull the cute concept successfully without being cheesy n yukky... n they didn't seem fake too.. (OMG diz is so fangirling!!!)

4) Minnie.. what more can i say... luv his smile, the twinkle in his eyes, how he enjoyed himself singing n fooling around wif wookie... lame dah x nampak minnie yg camni.. yg aku rindu sesangat... hahhahha.... (musti ade sesape yg dah nak start muntah.. silekan, ade aku halang?)

knape aku nampak macam suju boys amek diz opportunity 2 show their feelings 2 their gfs? ade manyak hidden luv signs.. even from kyu!! (atie nye heart dah pecah berderai.. hahahhhahha!). aku tunggu gak minnie punye sign.. x de pon.... apakah???

nah.. enjoy de song!!!!

Blog 19: dapat durian runtuh... alhamdulillah....

time: 8.30 p.m.

haa... satu mende yg 'un-sangka-rable' tlh berlaku pd diriku ini beberapa hari lepas... ntahla.. semenjak 2 menjak ni aku mmg x de mood nak wat ape2 pon, mungkin psl aku takot nak buat angio kot 29 hb ni... tu psal aku rase mls nak wat satu mende pon... debar woo.. mane boley x gabra, tebuk jantung tuh.. adoih!!...

n'way, aku yg agak 'terdesak' tetibe dikurniakan sesuatu yg x disangka2 yg amat2 aku perlukan n durian runtuh ini amat2 berguna untuk aku... ape mende tu? x pelah.. biar aku je yg tau tp syukur sangat2 pd Allah pasal mendengar jeritan batinku yg mendayu2 meminta pertolongannya... hahhaha... alhamdulillah.......

aku juga nak cakap congrats pd kedua2 adek aku iaitu:

a) si atie yg tlh berjaya menyambong masters nye dan akhirnya berhenti dr kerjanya yg amat demanding tuh.. sbr atie, rezeki ade dimane2 so jgn risau.. cepat2 wat masters pastu bley wat phd lak same ngan along pastu kite gi jadik professor kat korea!! phuahahha...

b) si yana yg berjaya mendapat kerja dengan super cepat (sebulan jek 'tanam anggur' kat umah jadik bibik-yana-layola).. baguih2.. bley blanje along makan tony romas ke... nippon-tei ke... ehhehe... yum2!

ni, saje aku nk share gamba muke aku kalu aku tue nanti... hahhhaha.. klaka btul... macam muke mama pulak... hhahhha... saje suke2 tengok muke sendirik berkedut... hahhah....

bayangkan dah tue2 camni still minat minnie.. hahhahhha...

"minnie *uhuk*uhuk* sarang *cough*cough* hae... phuahhahhahha!

Blog 18: eyes r windows 2 ur soul... dr krn mata....

~purty eyes~

time: 12.00 a.m.

this is something yg aku jarang bagitau but i hev a thing for eyes... what i mean is i love looking at peoples' eyes coz aku dpt 'baca' a lot of things by just looking at a person's eyes.. mase aku kat uni dulu, aku penah jatuh chenta gila2 ngan one poet yg idop mase zaman WW1 dulu just because aku nampak gambar die n his eyes told a lot of things to me... his name was Wilfred Owen n i fell in luv wif his poem about world war 1. strangely, i could feel a certain connection wif him, sampaikan aku siap letak his pic nicely in a frame on my study table.. my frens said that it was creepy... hahahha... i know.. but that's a good example on my 'eyes' fetish...

~witty n clever~

my first luv of my life.. hahahha... (sikit2 down memory lane) also started when i realized that the F4 boy in front of me at dat time had the most amazing eyes dat i've ever seen... kind, caring, strong-willed, friendly, shy... aish.... if i didnt be dat stoopid n selfish, perhaps i would be looking at that eyes until now... haizzz.... well, no use thinking about the past... what's over is over, right?.... close case....

~err.....perfect??......hahahaha (fangirl alert!fangirl alert!)~

it's the same wif minnie... aku dah bagitau kan yg aku nampak die memule dlm keadaan yg paling klaka but his eyes caught my attention... he may look 'soft'.. ye yana, aku ngaku mmg ye nampak 'lembut' (u happy now?) but his eyes have strong determination yg aku sendirik x leh nk explain camne... aku suke tengok de sparkle in his eyes when he did something successfully or de strong gaze he gave when he wanted to do something which seemed impossible.. cuma kebelakangan ni aku nampak mata dia agak kosong.... knape yek? i hope he will bounce back a.s.a.p because it kills me 2 see him in this state... hahahha.....

my siblings n close frens always ask me when i will start looking 4 de 1 n my response will always be 'along x jumpe lagi org yg buat along impressed' so thay start nagging n said i terlalu memilih, suke makes things complicated.... bla bla bla n stuff....hehhehe.... what they dont know is that to impress me perhaps is not that complicated... dat special someone must hev the 'right' eyes... n yup, maybe.. juz maybe dat alone can impress me... hehehhe... :)

Blog 16: angio anyone?

time : 7.00 p.m.

salam satu malaysia everyone! hehheh.. saje gatal nak tulis camtu.. hahhah.... lame gak blog ni menyepi... bukan nye ape.. demam plak semenjak 2 menjak ni.. berjangkit dr atie la nih! kalu dah demam tu malas sikitla nak tulis pape... kepale pon pening nak pusing2... adoih!!!

2nd checkup wif my cardiologist last monday went well... overall he was quite happy wif my progress... pumping rate goes up to 45% and heart muscle seems ok... but pulse is still very fast.. so he suggested 4 angio...

angio...angio... wanna know what's dat?.. ok..

Angiography

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Angiography or arteriography is a medical imaging technique used to visualize the inside, or lumen, of blood vessels and organs of the body, with particular interest in the arteries, veins and the heart chambers. This is traditionally done by injecting a radio-opaque contrast agent into the blood vessel and imaging using X-ray based techniques such as fluoroscopy. The word itself comes from the Greek words angeion, "vessel", and graphein, "to write or record". The film or image of the blood vessels is called an angiograph, or more commonly, an angiogram.

Although the term angiography is strictly defined as based on projectional radiography, the term has been applied to newer vascular imaging techniques such as CT angiography and MR angiography.

Coronary Angiography

One of most common angiograms performed is to visualize the blood in the coronary arteries. A long, thin, flexible tube called a catheter is used to administer the x-ray contrast agent at the desired area to be visualized. The catheter is threaded into an artery in the forearm, and the tip is advanced through the arterial system into the major coronary artery. X-ray images of the transient radiocontrast distribution within the blood flowing within the coronary arteries allows visualization of the size of the artery openings. Presence or absence of atherosclerosis or atheroma within the walls of the arteries cannot be clearly determined. See coronary catheterization for more detail..

memang x dpt dinafikan, aku memang rase cuak.. tapi nak wat camner?? dah terpakse kan... lagipon yana kate x yah risau coz it's not really that difficult procedure... aiyoo.......

aaa'h! aja aja hwaiting intan noona!

(bayangkan minnie yg kate.. hahhahha... berangan x sudah2)