i don't really know about everyone but i was born to be very alert about my surroundings.. VERY alert indeed and somehow i think it has started to become a curse instead of a blessing...
i am usually the first one to realize if something is wrong in any situation... or if someone is behaving differently from normal... and i HATE myself for realizing all these simple 'changes' because they are making my mind restless and my heart uneasy... because sometimes it's so pointless to be so empathic when everyone else can be unbelievably dense almost all the time....
i HATE myself for always thinking of others first... and always, ALWAYS neglecting what i want...
i tried to be selfish at times but the guilt i felt after that was so bad so i am back at square one...
but one thing i couldn't stand is sometimes my constant effort to care about something is often overlooked by some people, so much so that some even think that i purposely do all these things to make their lives easier is because i am supposed to be the responsible one.. the one who worries... the one who stupidly care about things which are not my business anyway.. the one who is supposed to think about everything...
but then again... WHO ASKED YOU TO 'SIBUK' ON THE FIRST PLACE, MORON?.... nobody cares about these things so why would you?
TO CARE OR NOT TO CARE... choosing to care about unnecessary things which would bring unwanted annoying feeling of torment and discomfort? or choosing to be an ignorant ass***e who seems happier when there are less things to worry about...
aish.... this world is already full of blockh***ds anyway.. do i want to be one, too?
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