Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Blog 95: opinions, anyone?

salam peeps!

xcited yg amat coz diz is my first entry yg aku type guna my MINNIE ie my beloved gelekshiteb.. hohoho... oleh krn aku ditinggalkan sume org yg sdg seronok berjimba di penang, terpaksalah aku update blogku coz aku tgh boring melampau.. heheh.. boley gitu?

tetibe aku terase nak tulis pasal mende ni pasal aku dah lemas jugakla bile banyak kali aku dengar mende yg same... pasal ape? pasal biznes yg adik aku buat.. sebelum aku menulis dengan lebih lanjut, ingin aku nyatakan disini yg aku bukan diupah untuk membuat apa2 promosi waima dibayar untuk menjatuh dan mengkondem mana2 pihak coz ape yg aku tulis ni hanyalah dr pengamatan n xperience aku sendirik melihat mende2 yg jadik depan mata aku...

aku xkan tulis ape mende biznes uda kat sini, sebab nanti boleh jadik kontroversi kate aku take sides or being biased, so kalu korang nak tau, carikla sendirik link dia kat blog aku ni, hokey... bile some of my friends n her friends n relatives or sape2 lah yg tau adik aku start biznes ni, banyak yg bagi pendapat2 yg pelbagai.. ade positive, ade membina, ade sceptical, ade interested, ade yg was was, ade yg geleng2 kepala, ade yg start bagi pendapat2 'bernas' sendirik n yg paling best... ade yg start mengutuk... (yg ni aku plg x boley layan...)

aku dah ckp yg aku tak kan take sides.. sume org ade hak masing2 nak rase camne, cume kenkadang aku agak pelik ngan sesetengah golongan manusia nih...mmglah zaman ni ade konsep freedom of speech tp jgnlah kita lupa, sebelum bukak mulut tu, pastikanlah kita tau sikit2 pasal ape mende yg kite nak komen supaya kita x kelihatan macam orang bodoh azali... buatla homework sikit, jgn main sedapjek bagi sedas dua pastu bile org counter attack, sendirik terkebil2 pastu start mencarut... hmm... mature, so verrryy mature.....  

mase my sis first kata yg she wants to do this thing seriously, i had 2 admit that i was worried... but don't get me wrong, my first concern was whether she would wake up one day after doing this business for years n years n felt that it was a mistake... tp sekali lagi aku terpikir.. kenapa aku sunguh jumud dgn berpikir demikian? aku try put myself in the same situation but in a different scenario.. would i wake up one day and feel that being a teacher is a big mistake? hmm... perhaps.. but how would i know if aku tak jadik cikgu on the first place, kan? so.. in order for my sis to know whether this thing is a mistake or not, the key point is that she has to try doing what she wants to do dulu... betul tak? n i am a firm believer that if you fail after you tried your very best is far better than being a coward, hiding and being scared of the 'what ifs' pastu sebab saje nak sedapkan hati sendirik, cuba nak cari negative points kondemkan orang yg actually decided to try n do the same thing yg korang x berani cuba... pada aku, org yang banyak cakap but no action ni bukan nya golongan yg 'play safe' (mcm ade yg sesetengah org kata) tp golongan yg pathetic sebenarnya... simple solution, just keep your 'helpful' opinion to yourself n keep your mouth shut becoz nobody ask for your opinion anyway....

next would be the concept of that biznes itself... aku xmau komen2 ape2 coz aku tak suka ckp pasal mende yg aku sendirik x 100% paham tp dr ape yg aku nampak, aku tau yg my sis jual barang yg dia sendirik keluarkan modal (yg bukannya semurah yg banyak org sangka, ye..) n dia dapat untung... so, ape bezanya dia ngan penjual product lain? i know how difficult n demanding her work is... aku yg nampak dia berjaga malam wat powerpoint presentations, preparing n devising her biznes plan, traveling all over malaysia to meet clients, checking n making sure her customers puas hati ngan produk tu from time to time dan 1001 thing yg org lain xnampak. ape yg pasti, aku x nampak pulak yg my sis tidur jek golek2 kat umah, karok siang malam n tetiba masuk duit ribu riban...  jd bayangkan betapa hanginnye aku bile ade manusia yg jadik uztaz/ustazah yg x bertauliah, sibuk ckp pasal konsep halal n haram... haishhh......

pada pandangan aku yg jahil ilmu agama ni, halal n haram is very difficult to justify dengan crystal clearnya... aku yg keje chegu ni pon x boleh kata yg gaji aku 100% halal... yg boleh confirmkan ialah Allah s.w.t shj... contohnya bila aku sakit teruk, masuk kluar wad n xpegi mengajar... boleh aku kategorikan gaji aku minggu tu duit haram coz i did not earn it? tp tak kan nak potong gaji aku sebab aku sakit n sakit ni bukan satu menda yg aku boleh kawal... so, macam mana nak letak hukum pada aku? susahkan? tula pasal, jgn mudah meletak kan hukum pada org lain... ape yg penting, aku tau situasi sebenar yg jadik pada aku n believe me, the guilt of knowing the fact that i still got paid by doing nothing is eating me bit by bit... it's definitely not a good feeling but deep down i know Allah knows best n i hope aku x lupa diri dgn mengambil kesempatan atas musibah yg berlaku pd aku, unlike SOME people... heheheh.... :)

so kesimpulannya... pada ku camnilah... a lot of us love to give our ten cent's worth... our own opinion but limit n channel it ke arah positif. aku tak kesah if ade yg voice out their concern sebab they sincerely care about others tp sadly kebanyakan manusia lebih suka jadik tukang kondem n tukang boo org bile org lain fail... right? but ask yourself this question, yg mana lagi hina? org yg cakap berdegar2 bumbung umah tp habuk pon tarak.. or org yg mencuba berkali2 walaupun dia banyak jatuh dr berjaya? pikirkanlah sendirik.....

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Blog 94: the real meaning of 'sacrifice'...

a very simple question but it's very difficult to answer without being a hypocrite.. am i talking nonsense? mengarutkah aku di pagi hari ni? hmm...

the word sacrifice itself it very vague.. what would be deemed good enough to be considered a 'sacrifice'? doing something we hate or we don't like just because it's our responsibility to do so? having to shoulder huge demand from people around us who thought that it's our job so do something or to solve something or to give something, day in day out, 24/7...

the interesting thing to ponder is adakah segala pengorbanan ini berbaloi? adakah apa yang kita buat orang akan ingat? but then again, perlukah kita sibuk nak pastikan orang mesti ingat apa yang kita buat?

yup, i agree... we can choose to look away, to pretend that it's not our responsibility; on the first place, to be the one to cover up everything, to make sure that things will go smoothly, to uphold the family name and reputation, to make sure our loved ones are always smiling...

but at what cause? to be criticized for not having anything but in reality you used up everything you have for the others to achieve what they have now? forgetting what you want in life because you are so busy making sure of the well beings of the other people around you?

a lot of people choose to be hypocrites... classic statements like "la, ade problem ke? knape tak bagitau?" or "kalau korang tak bagitau memang sumpah aku tak perasan"... oh.. come on! you will KNOW if your loved ones around you are in dire need of assistance of any sort... if you don't realize anything, you are either blind, deaf or just plain stupid or ignorant.. personally, i would say stupid.... just because that would make more sense...

as for me, if i start to complain or whine or ungkitkan semua bende yang aku dah buat untuk orang lain, that is not 'sacrifice' anymore.. dah lari konsep, dah jadik riak... sorilah stament emo tapi pada aku memang betul pun.. bila kita buat sesuatu untuk orang, tapi tak habis-habis beritahu semua 'pengorbanan' kita dengan harapan orang ingat, itu dah salah nawaitu...

yup, people will remember... remember how pathetic a*****e you are, most importantly...

if you sincerely want to help someone, beri bantuan sebelum orang tersebut datang meminta bantuan pada kita, kalau kita memang sedar orang itu memerlukan bantuan kita... tak kan bende simple macam ni pun tak boleh nak faham?

kalau lah betul pun kita tak perasan, atau terlepas pandang, atau memang tak pernah ambil kisah pun... bila ade orang datang minta bantuan kita cubalah rasa bangga dan terharu kerana orang tersebut percaya pada kita untuk membantu dia menyelesaikan masalah dia...

kalau kita mampu, bantulah setakat yang boleh... kalau tak mampu, cuba fikirkan jalan sekali untuk membantu  orang tersebut.. ni kan peluang Allah bagi untuk kita tambah pahala dalam akaun kita...

tapi kalau awal-awal kita dah fikir yang orang ni nak ambil kesempatan, nak tumpang kesenangan kita... that's why i said it's easier to be hypocrites... pretending that we couldn't do anything to help padahal ada 1001 bentuk bantuan yang boleh kita beri... yang lebih dashyat... we do help, reluctantly.. and then we whine and we pinpoint every single thing that we do, hoping that people will know and realize how 'generous' we are... great, simply superb!

manusia2 ini boleh tidur nyenyak setiap malam kan? pelik.....

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Blog 93: guilty....

just realized something, my other blog has reached more than 2000 hits eventhough i have not been updating it for the past 3 months... just out of curiosity, i asked my students about it..


the reply?

"kitorang slalu gak bukak tcer... mana tau kalau tcer update ke.."

*we always looked for new notes there, hoping that you will update..

aww man! talk about how irresponsible i am as a teacher.. sigh... my guilt is 'eating' me up..
sigh.....


Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Blog 92: my new love!


MY NEW GADGET!

Name    
MINNIE

Date of Purchase
2nd SEPTEMBER 2011


MY LIFE IS AWESOME!

Blog 91: second chances...

Syawal is about forgiving others and seeking for forgiveness... Zue, my daughter, made me very happy when she  showed her maturity by making the first move to do something with with her 'personal' issues... so much so that she inspired me to do the same with my own 'personal' issue.. hehehe.. 

and I could say I felt much better somehow... it's not that I've completely forgotten about it... how hurtful those words were but again being angry is very, very tiring... somehow, this negative feeling will always make me feel 'drained', as if my energy is being sucked slowly, and in the end.. I felt nothing because everything seems empty....

I made the first move and I am very proud of myself... I am proud because I am the better person, I swallow my anger and accept the fact that some people do make mistakes.. I make mistakes all the time too, so I am hoping that when it's my time to screw up something or make big mistakes, other people would also be as forgiving...

and I also could proudly say that I am much happier now......  :)

Monday, September 5, 2011

Blog 90: what happened to me...

hi peeps! sorry for the very long silence.....

as expected, i was warded again for a week just before Raya... aishhhh... couldn't complain much... kinda of expecting it to happen eventually... my feet have been swelling like forever and i feel like some of my meds are not as effective as before, so time to see the docs again! hehhe...

alhamdulillah... i managed to celebrate Raya with my loved ones after pleading to my cardiologist (with killer puss in boots cute eyes! heheh)... he sighed and gave me stern warning not to overexert myself.. ahhahha... yay! MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!  ;)

the feeling of being able to be back home, surrounded by familiar happy faces was indescribable.. it makes everything seemed so perfect... so meaningful...

and if i have to endure more hardship, pain and agony... by all means... bring it on!  :)

 

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