Blog 82: i hate this word.... ~death~

i know i seldom talk about this thing but that doesn't mean that i don't think about it all the time....

it's kinda difficult to ignore this fact if you are in my condition....

as much as i thought i am prepared for it (in a way... well, i know i should do more good things n upgrade myself to be a better Muslim).... i am still in shock when i heard that i lost another student last monday due to leukemia...

it hurts a lot because my student is supposed to grow up, enter uni, get a good job, start a family, do all those normal things that an ordinary 14-year-old should do....

but apparently Allah loves him more...

i cried... i cried because i am scared... i am scared to see how short a person's life could be... how everything would just end abruptly... like a short blow to a candle on a birthday cake...

haishhhh..... i hate this 'heavy' feeling in my chest... i really do.....

rest in peace amirul... u have been a very strong fighter to the very end and i wish i have the same strength  and courage like yours when my time comes....

to hidayu, it's been almost 4 years since you are gone and teacher still remembers you, up till now...