Blog 85: my first crush....

long before my heart was taken by Minnie (hehhehe..) there was this one special guy who deserved to be in my journal....

he was my first celebrity crush... a real one... nope, not the stoopid bandwagon thingy like Yusry KRU (wtf intan???!!)..

how do i know he was different.. well, same like Minnie... I fell in love with his eyes first, because i could clearly see the 'pain' in there... his songs 'spoke' to me...i felt his pain and the feeling of loneliness.... i understand some of his view in life....

but he was gone, too early i think... because he could have been a legend by now... well, technically he is considered the legend but a LIVING legend could have been much better.... 

this is one of the things that i still could not understand until now... the world is full of pain and agony, i get that... but why was it so hard for you to see the other beautiful part of it? why couldn't you feel the love from people around you? why did you choose the easy way out by ending your own life?

it might end for you but for those who love and admire you for your passion, and those who could see up till now how special you are, the pain of losing you is still deep and bleeding... yup, even after these 17 long years ..... 

RIP KURT COBAIN

1967-1994